Thursday, January 24, 2013

Day 200 - In this moment

Today was a good day to get several things done.  I was able to finish more of the work project I am doing, got laundry done, spent some neat time with a old friend and am now at church while my daughter is in Kids Praise practice.  It is all good.  I couldn't even complain about the weather, it was 84 and my family and friends up north are in sub zero temps.

I started the day off with prayer and worship time along with a devotional reading.  Very important for me getting a grip on my stance with God at this moment in time.  I realize I am not in the beginning, laying a need before Him and I am definitely not at the end with the answer to prayer and walking in the abundant blessing.  Where I am is in the middle portion, staying the course, not really feeling or hearing Him, walking the faith and obedience walk, fully committed to finish the course and staying positive as best I can.

Lord, I am grateful for all You do for me.  I know You are with me each day even when I don't feel or hear You.  I am committed and going to use all my strength You provide me to keep on course.  I am tuning my heart to expectancy and I can't wait for the break through.  Until then I am devoted to You and moving one step at a time.  Amen

So kneeling in the path and then finding a rock to lean on I prayed.  I wept.  I found joy in the solitude of this place.  I have no sense of the Almighty but I know in my spirit He is here.  I look around but in the darkness I can see nothing so I close my eyes and rest my head.  I fall asleep dreaming of a majestic place where angels and choirs are singing, the Son is the shining light and there will never be darkness at all.

Soon I feel warmth on my face.  I open my eyes to the daylight and the warmth of the sun on me.  There are clouds around but it is a crisp cool morning and time to get up and get moving.

Before leaving here I thank God for seeing me through the dark of night and for His comfort and protection.  I am sold out to this journey.  I have given myself to every broken spot He has touched and to the transformation He is fashioning before my eyes.  I take Him at His Word and shout it out as a proclamation for the day.  It is going to be good, it is going to be great, it is going to be fantastic and I am happy I get to manifest what ever reflection of Jesus I can.  

Pushing onward the going is still very steep.  I have no idea when this climb will end, if there will be another place to rest or if I will encounter any more fearful occurrences.  But I know I can't go back, the only way is forward.  No matter how far I have yet to climb it will be worth it.  I have never had the Lord lead me where there wasn't something for me to stand in awe about.

So onward, upward, one foot then the other.  I regulate my breathing, the air is very dense and the altitude makes each step hard.  I am struggling to keep upright.  Even if I have to crawl I will keep moving.

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