Today was a very difficult day for me. It was the end of my professional career with Patterson Dental Company. I had worked for the past almost two years with many great and wonderful people in this organization. From peers, to the support staff at the local DFW branch, the Territory reps, and Equipment specialists and even others around the country, I bid farewell and continued great success. It was indeed my pleasure to be apart of this team. I loved what I did and the offices I met in the performance of my job. I am proud to have met everyone and look forward to meeting again in a different capacity as I transition into a new facet of dentistry.
Leaving something to begin something else is scary and exciting. I have answered this challenge many times in the over thirty years since I began my career in dentistry. Each time the new adventure was a stepping stone in professional advancement and development. I love dentistry and truly am blessed to be joining the team at Dental Compliance Specialists.
My passion for the profession has always been about making great staff greater by improving the quality of dentistry for patients. And by educating the public in advances in dentistry to help make their lives better. I don't shy away from difficult situations or challenges. It is part of who I am. Being able to lend my years of experience to a company whose focus is on helping dental offices with their integrity excites me.
I purposefully give the Lord Jesus Christ my life in all that I do. Without His guidance and wisdom I go nowhere. I will continue to uphold my Christian values and moral principles which have guided me through my life as I begin a new professional chapter. Honor and glory go to only One and having Him with me is comfort like none other.
Lord, today and for all my days be in charge. Give me everything I need each day to be who You have called me to be. Help me help others, it is my desire. I ask for blessing on the Patterson family I am leaving and also on the Dental Compliance family I am joining. May Your eternal riches be to each and everyone who seeks You. Amen
So as I stand from the rock where I have rested to view the beauty of nature I bow my head. I pray for all the places I have been up to this point. I bring to this peak the 'broken' places in my life from my childhood to present. I thank the Lord for the painful times when I didn't think I could go on. I thank him for the pinnacle times when joy couldn't be contained. I weep as I let every experience in life be remembered here. My God is so good and I can feel His presence here like never before. For a brief moment it is like His arms are a shroud for me. The wind on my neck, His very breath.
As each care in life is absorbed in this moment I open my eyes to the most beautiful horizon ever. Before me lies uncharted territory and behind me the path of my purpose. I strain to take in the panorama and capture it in my mind. I am confidently going to walk in all the Lord has for me as I start my decent. I know those plans are for my good, for a hope in my future. As I stand here delighting in Him I know He hears my heart's desire. I am counting on Him for all of my tomorrow's.
I sling on my backpack, gather all my belongings. In this moment I think of what Moses must have felt like on the Mount. It is almost indescribable, yet now hidden in my heart. Before I turn to leave I cry aloud, "Father I love you with a depth I can't describe. I trust You completely. I need you with me every moment. Thank You for meeting me here. As Your daughter may I live the rest of my life's passion with Your fervor. May everyone I encounter feel You through me."
I wipe the tears away and start the trek into my unknown but where His promise is to be abundantly more than I can ask, think or imagine.
Friday, November 30, 2012
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Day 144 - Bridle vs Tame
Heard an interesting thing today and read some even more interesting scripture. It concerned watching what we say and choosing the correct words.
I'm sure like me you have found yourself regretting saying something. Either you were angry, frustrated or whatever and you spout off with a comment or harsh word and then wish you hadn't said it. Have you ever been so careless with what you said and to whom you said it you were embarrassed?
Well it happens to me most when I get angry. But I am learning a bit more self control. I don't want my words to hurt. It causes such a long lasting effect.
I know because I grew up with two parents who were masters at assaulting with words. They didn't need a knife to carve, the words did all the slicing and dicing. Both of my parents could fillet you wide open and then walk away as if nothing had happened, leaving you bleeding and emotionally dying.
Today in reading the word I saw in James where we are admonished to bridle our tongue. Then a few scriptures later I see the statement that the tongue is not able to be tamed. On first reading one might think they contradict each other but in fact both are describing exactly what is the issue.
Just like you can bridle a stallion and eventually break him, it is impossible to tame a horse who has not been successfully bridled and broken. But in the case of our tongue you can only bridle it. That means you can control it and guide it to correct action. It takes discipline and self control. What you can't do is tame the tongue. It is always subjected to bridling to stay our of trouble.
Lord, I am grateful You give us such great descriptions about how to maintain our Christian walk. Since the power to speak life or death is in our smallest member, the tongue, it is very important to know what we are asked to do. It is in your strength and power we can accomplish the task. Amen
Having reached the summit I decided to perch myself on a slanted rock face a few feet in front of me. The rock face was hiding the view from me. It would very carefully positioning my body in such a way as to get the entire panoramic view.
All the things that got me in trouble before I went on this journey are not issues here. Why? Because many of them had to do with how I reacted with others. While I am positioning my self with my camera on this resting place I am reminded how much I miss interacting with people. It is going to be really awesome to get together with family after this trip and share. But for now the vista awaits. Taking the lens cap off my camera I lift it to eye level and behold........sights I never thought possible.
I'm sure like me you have found yourself regretting saying something. Either you were angry, frustrated or whatever and you spout off with a comment or harsh word and then wish you hadn't said it. Have you ever been so careless with what you said and to whom you said it you were embarrassed?
Well it happens to me most when I get angry. But I am learning a bit more self control. I don't want my words to hurt. It causes such a long lasting effect.
I know because I grew up with two parents who were masters at assaulting with words. They didn't need a knife to carve, the words did all the slicing and dicing. Both of my parents could fillet you wide open and then walk away as if nothing had happened, leaving you bleeding and emotionally dying.
Today in reading the word I saw in James where we are admonished to bridle our tongue. Then a few scriptures later I see the statement that the tongue is not able to be tamed. On first reading one might think they contradict each other but in fact both are describing exactly what is the issue.
Just like you can bridle a stallion and eventually break him, it is impossible to tame a horse who has not been successfully bridled and broken. But in the case of our tongue you can only bridle it. That means you can control it and guide it to correct action. It takes discipline and self control. What you can't do is tame the tongue. It is always subjected to bridling to stay our of trouble.
Lord, I am grateful You give us such great descriptions about how to maintain our Christian walk. Since the power to speak life or death is in our smallest member, the tongue, it is very important to know what we are asked to do. It is in your strength and power we can accomplish the task. Amen
Having reached the summit I decided to perch myself on a slanted rock face a few feet in front of me. The rock face was hiding the view from me. It would very carefully positioning my body in such a way as to get the entire panoramic view.
All the things that got me in trouble before I went on this journey are not issues here. Why? Because many of them had to do with how I reacted with others. While I am positioning my self with my camera on this resting place I am reminded how much I miss interacting with people. It is going to be really awesome to get together with family after this trip and share. But for now the vista awaits. Taking the lens cap off my camera I lift it to eye level and behold........sights I never thought possible.
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Day 143 - Impatience
Today was exciting. I was able to share with some friends about myself, passion and product. I attend a networking group and the ladies are very kind and sweet. Many are there to meet with each other and develop friendships as well as grow their businesses. I have only been able to attend sporatically because of my day job. With my employment changing in two days I will have time to be more involved and develop some cool friends.
Since I don't have a 'product' in the traditional sense I prayed and asked God what I could share that would be helpful to the women there. I decided to encourage and inspire with thought provoking questions and helpful ideas for living a great life.
Today God also showed me a 'broken' portion it was time to heal. Maybe you know it? Impatience. I am still a person who can get irritated and impatient rather quickly. I don't like it and if you are one like me you probably don't like it either. I pray and ask God for help, so many times. I should know better. The only way to heal this is though circumstances and situations which evoke a response.
Of course this morning while getting my presentation ready for my luncheon at Orchid I barked at my husband. I was short and, I'll say it, rude. I immediately felt bad and the cycle of: irritation, bad response, guilt, played out AGAIN. Ouch it hurts to admit it but I am sure I am not alone. So what to do? Ask forgiveness and then submit the issue to God, AGAIN. Through Him is the only way to heal 'broken' behavior. Ignoring it does nothing to foster wholeness. Out in the open, confessing, God is able to work.
Lord, I am sorry and ask You to heal the root of what causes me to snap and respond unkind toward those I love. Help me to be more like Christ. You can see my heart. I have compassion and love the people in my life. I never want to hurt or disappoint them. I want to be the best me. Amen
So when I was about to the summit, ready to take in the beauty and majesty of God's handiwork, I tripped. I feel hard on the path and just knew something was bleeding for sure. On closer evaluation I was fine but realized slowing down my pace was wise.
While I was gathering my body into an upright position I heard The Lord speak to me. He said, "When you are impatient, it is because you are hurrying and not paying attention to the things along the way I want you to see. You fall and it hurts." Wow, an answer to the root of my issue. It is because I am in a hurry, not being observant of the things on my journey.
It is true. My eyes were on the summit and for the last portion of the path I couldn't tell you what was there. What had I missed? In my haste to "get this portion of the climb over with" I took a tumble.
While I dusted off the dirt from my pants I thanked God for revelation. My job now is application of the truth. Slow and steady was the cry of the turtle and he taught the hare a lesson. The race is not only about the fastest but rather the journey itself. So onward I go having embraced another 'broken' area which I yeilded to the God for His healing power. I know the view ahead of me can't measure up to my face in the dirt on this path. Having been brought low, God spoke. It just doesn't get any better.
Since I don't have a 'product' in the traditional sense I prayed and asked God what I could share that would be helpful to the women there. I decided to encourage and inspire with thought provoking questions and helpful ideas for living a great life.
Today God also showed me a 'broken' portion it was time to heal. Maybe you know it? Impatience. I am still a person who can get irritated and impatient rather quickly. I don't like it and if you are one like me you probably don't like it either. I pray and ask God for help, so many times. I should know better. The only way to heal this is though circumstances and situations which evoke a response.
Of course this morning while getting my presentation ready for my luncheon at Orchid I barked at my husband. I was short and, I'll say it, rude. I immediately felt bad and the cycle of: irritation, bad response, guilt, played out AGAIN. Ouch it hurts to admit it but I am sure I am not alone. So what to do? Ask forgiveness and then submit the issue to God, AGAIN. Through Him is the only way to heal 'broken' behavior. Ignoring it does nothing to foster wholeness. Out in the open, confessing, God is able to work.
Lord, I am sorry and ask You to heal the root of what causes me to snap and respond unkind toward those I love. Help me to be more like Christ. You can see my heart. I have compassion and love the people in my life. I never want to hurt or disappoint them. I want to be the best me. Amen
So when I was about to the summit, ready to take in the beauty and majesty of God's handiwork, I tripped. I feel hard on the path and just knew something was bleeding for sure. On closer evaluation I was fine but realized slowing down my pace was wise.
While I was gathering my body into an upright position I heard The Lord speak to me. He said, "When you are impatient, it is because you are hurrying and not paying attention to the things along the way I want you to see. You fall and it hurts." Wow, an answer to the root of my issue. It is because I am in a hurry, not being observant of the things on my journey.
It is true. My eyes were on the summit and for the last portion of the path I couldn't tell you what was there. What had I missed? In my haste to "get this portion of the climb over with" I took a tumble.
While I dusted off the dirt from my pants I thanked God for revelation. My job now is application of the truth. Slow and steady was the cry of the turtle and he taught the hare a lesson. The race is not only about the fastest but rather the journey itself. So onward I go having embraced another 'broken' area which I yeilded to the God for His healing power. I know the view ahead of me can't measure up to my face in the dirt on this path. Having been brought low, God spoke. It just doesn't get any better.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Day 142 - Shy, Why?
Tomorrow won't be the first time I have spoken in public. It will be the first time I have talked to a group of ladies about myself, my passion and product which is what the Orchid Networking group is all about. I have been participating, when I could, with this women's group. I have met some fabulous ladies, learned alot about what makes them excited about their product or service and most of all the passion they use to propel them to success. It is so cool to be able to call them firends.
I have prepared what I feel The Lord has laid on my heart. I don't know if I am speaking to one or the whole group in attendance but I have submitted the whole message to God to use as He desires. That is very special. I can't wait!
Lord, I ask You to take my words, my story and touch the hearts of those who are coming. I want Your blessing on everything I do and everything I say. May I be found pleasing to You. Amen
So just a few more steps and I am going to reach the summit. This particular climb has been very challenging and although I have not experienced any severe circumstances it has been a tough go. The best part is knowing God is with you. I am comfortable in His plans for me. I am counting on Him to continue everything He has started. I'm running the race and will finish the course.
I have prepared what I feel The Lord has laid on my heart. I don't know if I am speaking to one or the whole group in attendance but I have submitted the whole message to God to use as He desires. That is very special. I can't wait!
Lord, I ask You to take my words, my story and touch the hearts of those who are coming. I want Your blessing on everything I do and everything I say. May I be found pleasing to You. Amen
So just a few more steps and I am going to reach the summit. This particular climb has been very challenging and although I have not experienced any severe circumstances it has been a tough go. The best part is knowing God is with you. I am comfortable in His plans for me. I am counting on Him to continue everything He has started. I'm running the race and will finish the course.
Monday, November 26, 2012
Day 141 - Home Stretch
This is the last week of work for me with my current employer. I have been busy trying to get things together to take in on my last day. It is difficult for me because I really liked everything I did in my current job. I know even though I am not functioning in my current position I will be keeping in touch with many I have worked with. I will still be working in the dental arena and my contacts with this job will be those I will touch base with in my new position. I am eager to meet new offices as well and even more so those who are new to dentistry.
It is really rewarding to be able to use the years of experience to do something you have only dreamed about doing. The exciting part of this weekend will be I am moving into "dreamed about" status. I am so ready to move forward and I know how much it is reliant on God showing up and being powerful in this new job. I am being obedient to walk where He asks me and I am fully reliant on Him for everything.
Lord, thank you for leading and providing. I know You never call us to more than what we are capable of doing. I thank you for giving me all the experience and now need Your direction and insight to move on. I prayerfully consider You every day and how much I am leaning on You. Amen
I can see ahead of me the summit. I know enough to expect some grand vistas and beauty beyond belief. Just like in our personal life we have to go though 'broken' things in order to see the glorious wonders. The anticipation of what is to come makes me joyful. Like a child at Christmas I am very eager at unveiling God's gift to me.
It is really rewarding to be able to use the years of experience to do something you have only dreamed about doing. The exciting part of this weekend will be I am moving into "dreamed about" status. I am so ready to move forward and I know how much it is reliant on God showing up and being powerful in this new job. I am being obedient to walk where He asks me and I am fully reliant on Him for everything.
Lord, thank you for leading and providing. I know You never call us to more than what we are capable of doing. I thank you for giving me all the experience and now need Your direction and insight to move on. I prayerfully consider You every day and how much I am leaning on You. Amen
I can see ahead of me the summit. I know enough to expect some grand vistas and beauty beyond belief. Just like in our personal life we have to go though 'broken' things in order to see the glorious wonders. The anticipation of what is to come makes me joyful. Like a child at Christmas I am very eager at unveiling God's gift to me.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Day 140 - Circumstances
It was another great day at church today. I had grandchildren visiting and they love to go to the Southlake campus of Gateway, our church. We normally attend a campus closer to our home. The kids are on sensory overdrive when they go to the classes during church service. Today was no exception.
The service left me with a great takeaway. "Circumstances are the things you see when you take your eyes off God." Josh Morris, Pastor Robert's son preached today. He challenged everyone to know how to find "comfort" in The Lord. Comfort translated, with strength. How awesome to be with strength in God as we walk this life.
Lord, I am so happy to be a child of yours. Knowing You are the strength in my life is more than comfort. It is peace, joy, hope for everything I do and will do. Thank you for all You have given me. Amen
As I keep pushing higher and higher I realize there is strength building in my legs. I should feel tired but instead I have increased energy. I can tell that I have everything I need to make the summit. I keep from doubting and instead live in and through You. It is the only way I know to exist. Pushing on I am very excited to be going this course with You beside, around me and through me. Right foot, left foot here I go.
The service left me with a great takeaway. "Circumstances are the things you see when you take your eyes off God." Josh Morris, Pastor Robert's son preached today. He challenged everyone to know how to find "comfort" in The Lord. Comfort translated, with strength. How awesome to be with strength in God as we walk this life.
Lord, I am so happy to be a child of yours. Knowing You are the strength in my life is more than comfort. It is peace, joy, hope for everything I do and will do. Thank you for all You have given me. Amen
As I keep pushing higher and higher I realize there is strength building in my legs. I should feel tired but instead I have increased energy. I can tell that I have everything I need to make the summit. I keep from doubting and instead live in and through You. It is the only way I know to exist. Pushing on I am very excited to be going this course with You beside, around me and through me. Right foot, left foot here I go.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Day 139 - BUSY
Busy, busy, busy. Today started at 6am getting showered and on the road for Tyler, Tx about a 2 1/2 hour drive. Funeral and family time from 9:30-12:30 then on the road back to DFW. Home about 2:45 and then on to shopping and then home for dinner. After dinner the kids bath time followed my decorating the tree while listening to Christmas carols and drinking egg nog. Kids laid down to watch a movie and have fallen asleep.
I am truly a blessed grandmother to have my grand children around. One here visiting this weekend from Phoenix and the other two from Waco. Life just doesn't get much better in my opinion. I love them so much but my 50 something body doesn't get around quite as fast as years ago when my children were small. Never the less the day was a ton-o-fun.
Lord, it is great to be around family. I appreciate the fact that my grandchildren are so engaging. They are precious and divine gifts from above. My heart is happy and the world is sweet when I get to have them over. How wonderful life is and we owe all our days to You. Amen
So as I continue pushing along this path I am at peace. I think of all the family members that will be so happy to hear about my journey. I think of the times I devoted hours for my kids and now I am finally getting to enjoy the bounty of their blessing. Life goes on and on and generation after generation we speak into the lives of others. I can't wait to share all I've learned during this excursion. The riches of The Lord are powerful.
I am truly a blessed grandmother to have my grand children around. One here visiting this weekend from Phoenix and the other two from Waco. Life just doesn't get much better in my opinion. I love them so much but my 50 something body doesn't get around quite as fast as years ago when my children were small. Never the less the day was a ton-o-fun.
Lord, it is great to be around family. I appreciate the fact that my grandchildren are so engaging. They are precious and divine gifts from above. My heart is happy and the world is sweet when I get to have them over. How wonderful life is and we owe all our days to You. Amen
So as I continue pushing along this path I am at peace. I think of all the family members that will be so happy to hear about my journey. I think of the times I devoted hours for my kids and now I am finally getting to enjoy the bounty of their blessing. Life goes on and on and generation after generation we speak into the lives of others. I can't wait to share all I've learned during this excursion. The riches of The Lord are powerful.
Friday, November 23, 2012
Day 138 - All the family
Today was a busy day between picking up family, two different ones at two different airports. Then another Arties performance, followed by pizza and then making homemade dessert pies. The pies were a flop but the fun was constructing them. Then it was time for bed before a big day tomorrow.
Kids are so funny as they can get very excited and majorily dissapointed in a blink of an eye. Heck, even my adult kids can do the same thing. Today I dealt with both. It was cute and I thought everyone would be happy with me having the kids so they could all enjoy Nicole in her play. I kinda took the stance, I am going to do what for me is the right thing to do and then let others figure it out. I can't make people reason a certain way to follow my logic and extension of hospitality. As long as I am staisfied about the decisions I make, so be it.
Lord, thanks for showing us the proper way to act and your working to help us all. Amen
It was rather slow going and I felt a huge burden lift. For months I had tried too hard and it only made me more miserable. So as I am walking along and following the switchbacks I am also replaying some of the more challenging times with other people. I can only hope there will be more empathy extended and consideration of peoples feeling and actions before acting hastily.
Kids are so funny as they can get very excited and majorily dissapointed in a blink of an eye. Heck, even my adult kids can do the same thing. Today I dealt with both. It was cute and I thought everyone would be happy with me having the kids so they could all enjoy Nicole in her play. I kinda took the stance, I am going to do what for me is the right thing to do and then let others figure it out. I can't make people reason a certain way to follow my logic and extension of hospitality. As long as I am staisfied about the decisions I make, so be it.
Lord, thanks for showing us the proper way to act and your working to help us all. Amen
It was rather slow going and I felt a huge burden lift. For months I had tried too hard and it only made me more miserable. So as I am walking along and following the switchbacks I am also replaying some of the more challenging times with other people. I can only hope there will be more empathy extended and consideration of peoples feeling and actions before acting hastily.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Day 137 - Thanksgiving
Well today was the annual celebration of Thanksgiving. Last year we were in Missouri with Ken's sister and husband. This year we were with Ken's children and spouses. It was a good meal and fun to be with everyone. The kids had a blast and adults enjoyed football.
During the meal we all took turns going around the table and telling what we were thankful for. It was very touching to hear and most everyone was thankful for family and the older ones for good health. Seems the young ones were thankful for the Mayflower. Guess that is correct, without the first settlers we would not have a first thanksgiving meal to celebrate.
Lord, it is very nice to be in great company with friends and family. We enjoy our freedom and that means so very much. We are also so thankful for the fact we are free and enjoy grace and mercy. We love you and will never forget what you did to give us everything we have. Amen
So as I keep hiking along I reach for a snack bar from my bag. I get the pumpkin nut one. It reminds me of meals with the traditional dessert - pumpkin pie. Yum. Can't wait to be home and enjoy some home cooking. As great a hikes can be there is something to be said for home, food, family and a bed.
During the meal we all took turns going around the table and telling what we were thankful for. It was very touching to hear and most everyone was thankful for family and the older ones for good health. Seems the young ones were thankful for the Mayflower. Guess that is correct, without the first settlers we would not have a first thanksgiving meal to celebrate.
Lord, it is very nice to be in great company with friends and family. We enjoy our freedom and that means so very much. We are also so thankful for the fact we are free and enjoy grace and mercy. We love you and will never forget what you did to give us everything we have. Amen
So as I keep hiking along I reach for a snack bar from my bag. I get the pumpkin nut one. It reminds me of meals with the traditional dessert - pumpkin pie. Yum. Can't wait to be home and enjoy some home cooking. As great a hikes can be there is something to be said for home, food, family and a bed.
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Day 136 - Greater love
Today my oldest daughter turns, shhhh....thirty-six. I can't believe she is that age. It means I'm not forty something any more. Wow! My children are all getting older and all I want to do is slow the clock down.
My daughter asked me to do something yesterday and I about fell out of my chair. Anyone who knows me realizes I hate, let me say it again, HATE to shop. I go and get what I need and leave. The idea of roaming the mall, price comparing for the best deal, trying on clothes, etc. is something akin to agony. When Nicole, my nine year old, asked me to go shopping this Friday, the day after Thanksgiving I told her, "NO absolutely not! Of all day to avoid the stores, this is the biggest one." I value my body and I my sanity more than to subject myself to the mob of gridiron women pushing, fighting, stealing to get that HUGE deal. Nicole was not happy.
So when my oldest asked me to please go to two stores and get two "deals" for her since she was out of state and could not go herself, guess what? I caved. I told her, "Happy Birthday." So in about thirty-six hours I am going to drag my well Thanksgiving fed body to the mall in search of her two special deals. Please God, help me.
You know you are reading this and thinking the same thing. There is no greater love than what you would sacrifice for your child. Jesus knew this well. When God said through Jesus a sacrifice of perfect life would be done for us He was in essence saying, "I love you so much, I'd die and am going to watch my son die, for you." Pretty amazing! If He loves us this much is it no wonder that we would do whatever it takes for our own children.
Lord, I love how you love me. I can't fathom the depth of it but sure am glad that years ago I decided to give my life to You. I expect you to help me, guide and protect me, and love me. I lean on You for everything and honor You with all that I am. Amen
So as I watched the squirrel moving gracefully through the tree branches pretty soon I noticed other animals arriving on the scene. A bird landed in a nest, followed my a lizard shooting through a cracked rock. Not to far away was an ant hill with a stream, like a black thread, leading into the mound. All of them doing their thing. All could care less about me. All of them on a mission to care for themselves and the rest of their kind. Just like we take care of our kind. Nature, like our fellow man, is a truly awesome sight.
My daughter asked me to do something yesterday and I about fell out of my chair. Anyone who knows me realizes I hate, let me say it again, HATE to shop. I go and get what I need and leave. The idea of roaming the mall, price comparing for the best deal, trying on clothes, etc. is something akin to agony. When Nicole, my nine year old, asked me to go shopping this Friday, the day after Thanksgiving I told her, "NO absolutely not! Of all day to avoid the stores, this is the biggest one." I value my body and I my sanity more than to subject myself to the mob of gridiron women pushing, fighting, stealing to get that HUGE deal. Nicole was not happy.
So when my oldest asked me to please go to two stores and get two "deals" for her since she was out of state and could not go herself, guess what? I caved. I told her, "Happy Birthday." So in about thirty-six hours I am going to drag my well Thanksgiving fed body to the mall in search of her two special deals. Please God, help me.
You know you are reading this and thinking the same thing. There is no greater love than what you would sacrifice for your child. Jesus knew this well. When God said through Jesus a sacrifice of perfect life would be done for us He was in essence saying, "I love you so much, I'd die and am going to watch my son die, for you." Pretty amazing! If He loves us this much is it no wonder that we would do whatever it takes for our own children.
Lord, I love how you love me. I can't fathom the depth of it but sure am glad that years ago I decided to give my life to You. I expect you to help me, guide and protect me, and love me. I lean on You for everything and honor You with all that I am. Amen
So as I watched the squirrel moving gracefully through the tree branches pretty soon I noticed other animals arriving on the scene. A bird landed in a nest, followed my a lizard shooting through a cracked rock. Not to far away was an ant hill with a stream, like a black thread, leading into the mound. All of them doing their thing. All could care less about me. All of them on a mission to care for themselves and the rest of their kind. Just like we take care of our kind. Nature, like our fellow man, is a truly awesome sight.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Day 135 - Crossing the Path
Today was another pretty day in my city. Temperatures in the upper 70's. You just can't beat that for this time of year. Everyone is busy making plans for Thanksgiving and the holidays are off and running.
I have always used the Friday after Thanksgiving to decorate my house for Christmas. This year will be no exception. I love this time of year. There is nothing more grand than celebrating Christ's birth and also our season of Thanks except Easter. I can't wait for the tree to go up, lights, ornaments and then holiday music and egg nog.
Tonight I have my first holiday party with a group of ladies I met when we entered a contest to attend Pat Smith's "Treasure You Girlfriend Retreat." So much has happened in my life since then, September 2012. I can't wait to share it with the girls. Of course the event won't be complete without a picture of all of us. (I'll have to tweet it to Pat :))
Lord, I am so happy for the friends in my life. It is because of relationships You went to the cross. May I be found always head over heals in love with You. Amen
Climbing the path with another healing souvenir. I'm on the lookout for other trinkets. I know the way will be challenging but I hear this particular climb has the best views once you arrive. I'm eager to see the beauty of nature but I don't want to miss the 'broken' places along the way which are in need of a touch.
Today I saw a squirrel scamper across my path and up a tree. He flew so fast you couldn't even make out his legs. I stopped to watch him play and thought about all the times I was so busy I couldn't be bothered to stop. It was only a squirrel but it represents someone crossing my path. I think the message today is to make sure I notice the people who intersect my life. You just never know who God is going to use to be pivotal in your life.
Monday, November 19, 2012
Day 134 - Emotionally charged
Today was one of those days I never expereince very much but sure would like to. I was able to visit with several people about my new job venture. Each of them had really interesting things to share. I was able to see God at work, positioning me in relationship for my endeavor. Even though I don't know exactly what will transpire I know I am moving in the right direction. I also have confirmation that what I am doing is in His plan for me. Trusting comes when I open up my hands and ask him to fill them. I am also aligning with Christ to have His mind on things instead of my finite brain with limited knowledge.
I am sure you can relate? We think and plan but our thoughts are simply that, ours. There is no way we can experience the magnitude of an infinite God. Try as hard as you wish but never can you dream or have visions as big as He is capable of bestowing.
Reminds of when the angel of The Lord called to Abraham from heaven and said, "..in blessing I will bless thee, and in multiplying I will multiply thy seed as the stars of the heaven, and as the sand which is upon the sea shore..." Genesis 22:17. Abraham heard this after being obedient to something many of us would never do, offer to sacrifice your first and only child. But Abraham was so confident and sold out trusting God. God rewarded him with a huge promise.
I want to be found with this much favor. I have lived my Christian life to serve others and I am a giver. My heart is for the helpless. I know how to praise in the storm and how to be grateful in drought. I also know my God is a rewarder. He is all powerful. He says nothing is impossible. I'm in to Him and in all the way. Without Him showing up in my life everyday I am nothing, a vapor. With Him, limitless.
Lord, my heart can't explain how I feel. It just beats in harmony with yours. Words spoken about me that have tried to damage my core have been repelled by the love and grace You give. There are no human words to convey my feelings. All I know is to keep praising You, thanking You and honoring You. With every breath in my body for as long as I live let me reflect You. Amen
So I am about to chose the path and I have several to pick from. Each looks challenging but my gut is moving me in one direction. I don't know where it will lead and what I will find along the way but with this first step I am off. It doesn't take long for me to know I'm on the right one. I saw a vine in the shape of an "S" laying in the sandy place adjacent to several flowering plants. I reached down and saw the finger of my father as he wrote S, S, S on a paper. I fell to my knees and wept.
A huge 'broken' area of my life had to do with the time my father told my children, in front of me, how selfish, self-centered and spiteful I was. I was shocked he would enter my home, and speak this way in front of my adult children. For years I have carried that triple S branding on my heart and wished it would go away because I never saw myself this way.
Then like a bolt of lightening a sound came from heaven, the voice I knew well. "You are MY daughter and this "S" means sacrifice. The sacrifice my son made on the cross freed not only you from sin but your father from the sin of not ever knowing his one and only daughter the way I do. Take this as a reminder of this place, this path, and know the greatest treasures lie ahead.
I am sure you can relate? We think and plan but our thoughts are simply that, ours. There is no way we can experience the magnitude of an infinite God. Try as hard as you wish but never can you dream or have visions as big as He is capable of bestowing.
Reminds of when the angel of The Lord called to Abraham from heaven and said, "..in blessing I will bless thee, and in multiplying I will multiply thy seed as the stars of the heaven, and as the sand which is upon the sea shore..." Genesis 22:17. Abraham heard this after being obedient to something many of us would never do, offer to sacrifice your first and only child. But Abraham was so confident and sold out trusting God. God rewarded him with a huge promise.
I want to be found with this much favor. I have lived my Christian life to serve others and I am a giver. My heart is for the helpless. I know how to praise in the storm and how to be grateful in drought. I also know my God is a rewarder. He is all powerful. He says nothing is impossible. I'm in to Him and in all the way. Without Him showing up in my life everyday I am nothing, a vapor. With Him, limitless.
Lord, my heart can't explain how I feel. It just beats in harmony with yours. Words spoken about me that have tried to damage my core have been repelled by the love and grace You give. There are no human words to convey my feelings. All I know is to keep praising You, thanking You and honoring You. With every breath in my body for as long as I live let me reflect You. Amen
So I am about to chose the path and I have several to pick from. Each looks challenging but my gut is moving me in one direction. I don't know where it will lead and what I will find along the way but with this first step I am off. It doesn't take long for me to know I'm on the right one. I saw a vine in the shape of an "S" laying in the sandy place adjacent to several flowering plants. I reached down and saw the finger of my father as he wrote S, S, S on a paper. I fell to my knees and wept.
A huge 'broken' area of my life had to do with the time my father told my children, in front of me, how selfish, self-centered and spiteful I was. I was shocked he would enter my home, and speak this way in front of my adult children. For years I have carried that triple S branding on my heart and wished it would go away because I never saw myself this way.
Then like a bolt of lightening a sound came from heaven, the voice I knew well. "You are MY daughter and this "S" means sacrifice. The sacrifice my son made on the cross freed not only you from sin but your father from the sin of not ever knowing his one and only daughter the way I do. Take this as a reminder of this place, this path, and know the greatest treasures lie ahead.
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Day 133 - Appreciation
Today my husbands kids and respective families gathered for the dedication of the newest grandchild, Alexis. It was nice for so many people to make the event and everything went very nicely. Many of us also attended the chruch service that preceeded the baby dedication. It was interesting to hear another pastor preach. I can honestly say it made me appreciate my pastor even more. Thank God there are different leaders for different lifestyles. I can appreciate also the many different kinds of people who need to hear preaching from a variety of delivery styles. It is nice to know that God can draw people to the leaders and fellowships where they can fit in best.
More than anything my husband and I want our children and grandchildren to know they can count on us, come to us with problems. We may not have all the answers but we know many things which work and others which don't. Our mission for the family is to help those that wish to know the best way to move through life. Like I said above, different strokes for different folks.
Lord, I am amazed at how you draw people to where you want them for serivng the kingdom. It is unique how you gift some for leadership and others as followers. I am in awe of all You are in the world as a whole. Thank you for everything you have done for me. I offer my open hands to you, with all I have within me at Your disposal. Please use me to my potential and for Your purpose. Amen
So as I move toward the path leading up the next ridge I am excited at what lies ahead because this particular path is totally on God for strentgh, enlightenment, motivation and provision. I will fail without Him. With Him I expect to see a harvest of souls and great happiness at what He does through me. It is blind faith and trust. My confidence will grow as will my obedience. Yeah!
More than anything my husband and I want our children and grandchildren to know they can count on us, come to us with problems. We may not have all the answers but we know many things which work and others which don't. Our mission for the family is to help those that wish to know the best way to move through life. Like I said above, different strokes for different folks.
Lord, I am amazed at how you draw people to where you want them for serivng the kingdom. It is unique how you gift some for leadership and others as followers. I am in awe of all You are in the world as a whole. Thank you for everything you have done for me. I offer my open hands to you, with all I have within me at Your disposal. Please use me to my potential and for Your purpose. Amen
So as I move toward the path leading up the next ridge I am excited at what lies ahead because this particular path is totally on God for strentgh, enlightenment, motivation and provision. I will fail without Him. With Him I expect to see a harvest of souls and great happiness at what He does through me. It is blind faith and trust. My confidence will grow as will my obedience. Yeah!
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Day 132 - Opening Day
Today was opening day for Nicole in "A Snow White Christmas" at Artie's Playhouse. She had the lead forest animal role "Buck" and did very well. She is loving the acting roles and wants to continue in as many as she can, advancing to the Main Stage where the adults perform too. Sitting in the audience was enjoyable as I watched her "do her thing." I am so pleased that she has this outlet for her talents and abilities.
It did get me to thinking though. As adults are we using the talents and abilities God gave to us? Seems such a shame to not use what the Master of the Universe deposited in us at birth and has grown in us over a lifetime.
I am glad that in December my new job is going to allow me to do that very thing. All the treasures He gave to me I am going to incorporate in my new job. In my off time I am going to venture into other areas addressing things I am naturally good at doing and enjoy. It is an exciting time.
Lord, thank you for all You have given to me. I so desire for everyone to know what it is You gave to them and how they can use it for the kingdom. Please help us all to discover and then delve into those areas. You will be there to strengthen, motivate, encourage and empower us. Amen
So after getting my back pack in place and my shoes laced back on I am ready for the next part of this journey. Ready, set, go....look out world here I come.
It did get me to thinking though. As adults are we using the talents and abilities God gave to us? Seems such a shame to not use what the Master of the Universe deposited in us at birth and has grown in us over a lifetime.
I am glad that in December my new job is going to allow me to do that very thing. All the treasures He gave to me I am going to incorporate in my new job. In my off time I am going to venture into other areas addressing things I am naturally good at doing and enjoy. It is an exciting time.
Lord, thank you for all You have given to me. I so desire for everyone to know what it is You gave to them and how they can use it for the kingdom. Please help us all to discover and then delve into those areas. You will be there to strengthen, motivate, encourage and empower us. Amen
So after getting my back pack in place and my shoes laced back on I am ready for the next part of this journey. Ready, set, go....look out world here I come.
Friday, November 16, 2012
Day 131 - On my way
Yes it was my first day of vacation. We were supposed to be traveling to Colorado and Kansas for Thanksgiving but had to change our plans after the family death a few weeks ago. I am going to have time to get ready for my new professional venture. I am so excited and scared at the same time.
Lord, what a great season I am in right now. You are leading me not only in healing 'broken' places but you are also teaching me to rely on You for everything I need. Thank you for being my all-in-all. There is comfort in knowing provision, skill, ability all come from You. I am honored You have chosen this daughter to see her dreams fulfilled. Amen
So after resting a bit I look in my pack for my journal. It is time to make some notes about my experience. I want to capture it for the future and to give me a reference of where I came from and am going. I can honestly say I am enjoying this adventure.
Lord, what a great season I am in right now. You are leading me not only in healing 'broken' places but you are also teaching me to rely on You for everything I need. Thank you for being my all-in-all. There is comfort in knowing provision, skill, ability all come from You. I am honored You have chosen this daughter to see her dreams fulfilled. Amen
So after resting a bit I look in my pack for my journal. It is time to make some notes about my experience. I want to capture it for the future and to give me a reference of where I came from and am going. I can honestly say I am enjoying this adventure.
Thursday, November 15, 2012
Day 130 - When you are out of sorts
Ever have one of those days when you feel out of sorts? Kinda under the weather? Blah..? Well that was me this morning. I hadn't even gotten up yet and I was icky sicky, sorta. But I did get up and managed to drag myself into the bathroom to get dressed and then on the road for work. I started feeling better pretty quickly and finished my day. Vacation starts for me tomorrow and I am ready.
Lord, I am so thankful You watch over us for our needs and even perk us up when we are sluggish. I hate it when I am feeling out of sorts but I know that You are there to keep me going and to provide all I need. Amen
So as I sit to rest for a bit I think over all the places and the journey I have had so far. It has been an experience and I am the better person for it. I know God has some great things coming in my healing journey and I know He is guiding the timing for me to encounter them. Thanks to Him for all I need.
Lord, I am so thankful You watch over us for our needs and even perk us up when we are sluggish. I hate it when I am feeling out of sorts but I know that You are there to keep me going and to provide all I need. Amen
So as I sit to rest for a bit I think over all the places and the journey I have had so far. It has been an experience and I am the better person for it. I know God has some great things coming in my healing journey and I know He is guiding the timing for me to encounter them. Thanks to Him for all I need.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Day 129 - About at the end
Well it is bittersweet. I only have one more training day before the holiday and then I will be into my last week with my company. The transition from my current job to the next is exciting but scary. I am looking forward to all The Lord may have for me in this new job. I am going to be doing something I have thought about for years. After thirty years I will be able to use all of my combined skills in a job I'm developing. Yeah!
Lord, please guide me. Give me the power to execute what you have for this new job. Give me favor and start even now to send the people who are to be a part of this new project. I give You all the glory for how You are working through me and how you will work in the lives of everyone I work with. Amen
So as I move along I am anticipating great and glorious things on the new path I will soon embark on. There is a grassy area ahead and I am going to rest there. I know the next phase of my journey will be lively. So happy to be in the plan God has for me.
Lord, please guide me. Give me the power to execute what you have for this new job. Give me favor and start even now to send the people who are to be a part of this new project. I give You all the glory for how You are working through me and how you will work in the lives of everyone I work with. Amen
So as I move along I am anticipating great and glorious things on the new path I will soon embark on. There is a grassy area ahead and I am going to rest there. I know the next phase of my journey will be lively. So happy to be in the plan God has for me.
Tuesday, November 13, 2012
Day 128 - Keep moving
Well today was a busy training day and for the most part it went well. The training I do requires the impartation of a ton of information. It is very difficult to grasp it all and be successful right away. I am amazed at how some people get it quickly and others seem to be at a loss constantly. I love people and anything I do that keeps me in touch with people is great.
Normal days even when they are busy can seem mundane. But I have to view them as minature rests in the course of life. Even though I am busy my brain can be in auto pilot. This is needed from time to time, don't you agree?
Lord, thank you for allowing each of us the opportunity to rest from the onslaught of information and allow us to just function. I am so thrilled You keep us from being overwhelmed. Amen
So as I am walking along the path I am pleased to be able to mindlessly wander. I stay within the path boundaries but my mind is not fidgity. This is when it is great to think on heavenly things, praise the Lord, get lost in the kingdom. What a wonderful mental excursion.
Normal days even when they are busy can seem mundane. But I have to view them as minature rests in the course of life. Even though I am busy my brain can be in auto pilot. This is needed from time to time, don't you agree?
Lord, thank you for allowing each of us the opportunity to rest from the onslaught of information and allow us to just function. I am so thrilled You keep us from being overwhelmed. Amen
So as I am walking along the path I am pleased to be able to mindlessly wander. I stay within the path boundaries but my mind is not fidgity. This is when it is great to think on heavenly things, praise the Lord, get lost in the kingdom. What a wonderful mental excursion.
Monday, November 12, 2012
Day 127 - Newness of things to come
Time is winding down with my present job.
December will be exciting and scary at the same time. I am trusting God, explicitly, as I walk into the new job ahead. It is taking a huge thrity year passion of mine and allowing me to share with others but in a suffering economy it could be a source for worry.
But I am confident in what God has called me to and I know He will provie.
Lord, I am grateful that you are my all in all. Thank you for every step I take. You are there and making a way when I am walking in faith. Amen
Coming further down the mountain is a chance to get ready for what is ahead. I'm willing to do what ever You direct me to do. My confidence is in The Lord.
December will be exciting and scary at the same time. I am trusting God, explicitly, as I walk into the new job ahead. It is taking a huge thrity year passion of mine and allowing me to share with others but in a suffering economy it could be a source for worry.
But I am confident in what God has called me to and I know He will provie.
Lord, I am grateful that you are my all in all. Thank you for every step I take. You are there and making a way when I am walking in faith. Amen
Coming further down the mountain is a chance to get ready for what is ahead. I'm willing to do what ever You direct me to do. My confidence is in The Lord.
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Day 126 - He taught us
Today our Pastor ended the series on The Lord's Prayer. It was very insightful and I got some great take-aways to remember and use in my prayer life. Doesn't it make sense we should always use the "model" prayer. If it was good enough for Jesus it should be more than great for us.
I found myself reflecting today on the goodness of God. Since it is Veterans Day remembering my own time in the United States Air Force came to mind. It was a time long ago but also having other family members who served makes it special. I'm thankful for our combined saftey and also touched by the ones we have lost in the line of duty.
Despite the outcome of the last week's Presidential election the one constant is that men and women are still fighting for our nations freedoms. I can't think of a more selfless act of service. To be willing to die for freedom and for a nation of people you know very few of is something to be honored. I'm gald we have today and all it means for those who served and those that are serving. Most of all for the countless many that will serve in the coming years.
Lord, I praise You for ultiimate protection, love, mercy and grace. Thank you for watching over our military and for our veterans. Bless those in harms way, suffering ailments from duty and for the many who stuggle to find their way once home again. May You touch and minsiter to all. Amen
So as I carefully tuck the picture of Christ's hands into my backpack I settle into the journey down the path. It is wonderful and free here on this trail. I think back to the days of formation and drill, marching in step to a cadence and harkening to the voice a of agitated drill sargent. As much as those days bring memories of hard work and lack of sleep it also taught me well. It gave me confidence, a sense of security with my fellow bunk mates and honoring a nation for the freedom we enjoy. I wonder where all those friends are now? So much has happened in forty years.
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Day 125 - Beginnings in Life
I got a full nights sleep and am ready for the day ahead. Since I have been gone from home for a few days I have some errands to run this morning. I awoke with some aches and pain which happens to me in my back if I lay for too long. Luckily I have an appointment with my chiropractor today.
I was thinking of my back and when it all went to wrong. I have had times where the pain is intense and then others when it is manageable. But all in all I have had constant pain for as long as I can remember. It could be I was born this way but many people say it has more to do with an incident in grade school when a teacher placed me rather firmly in my chair. My father even went to school to tell this particular teacher if I needed disciplining it would come from home, only. If you lived in my house you would beg for punishment from school. Both of my parents were harsh beyond reason when giving discipline. It is a miracle that I even survived my childhood from not only from a physical but more so an emotional standpoint.
So when we think about early life, once a child is born, we think about nurture. Every child needs it to survive. Beyond bottle/breast feeding there is nurture of the spirit. I'm talking about how a parent reaches into the heart of a child and instills love, peace, a well rounded sense of worth and well being. When all of those or most of them are absent where does the child get it, or do they? It could be they find it from other family members, child friends or friends parents, teachers, etc. In my case I got it from a few other family members. Without them I do not know what would have happened to me.
Sad as it is many children are faced with this and the rise in child suicide is directly related I am convinced. We can deal with bullies at school if we have a safe haven at home to fall back on. Bullies at school are nothing more than kids who have no one and feel a need to be "somebody." They may even be kids who are abused and have simply given up on ever being accepted by anyone.
Lord, I thank you for giving me some family and friends who spoke positive words and affirmation when I was young. I'm glad I didn't become a harsh kid who felt abandoned, turning my low self esteem into hurtful actions toward others. I am even more grateful you loved me and guided me to a place of grace where I surrendered my heart and life to you. Coming into fellowship with Jesus was a pivotal part of my life and am so glad to be Your daughter. Bless all the kids of the world and keep them safe and from the enemy. Place a hedge of protection around them and bring someone into their life who can guide them to the cross. Amen
I met a wonderful family today as I was making my way down the path. Mom was hiking along with her two kids. They were having a great time talking about school, the upcoming holiday season and who was more fit than the other. I stopped them and introduced myself. We had a chance to chat briefly while her children took out spiral notebooks from their backpacks. The kids huddled together and started writing and sketching what they could see from the path.
"We are on a day hike to the summit, where I have a great surprise for them." She was nervous but excited.
"Sounds fabulous. I hope your day is fun filled." I was happy for them.
"I brought them here to teach them how vast and wonderful our world is and how you can't always see the big picture from a low place. You have to climb high to see it all. I have recently lost my husband and their father. He was taken very suddenly in an accident. Our grief was huge at first and now is getting better. We focus on the joy we have in our life and how much pleasure he brought to us over the years. The children wanted to honor him by climbing, which he loved to do with us, and capturing our feelings this first time without him." She was getting teary as she glanced toward the kids busy in their journals.
"I think it is awesome you can do this with them. What a huge blessing." I was kinda at a loss for words. The family love was radiant and God was teaching me yet again about the power of who He is.
"We are blessed and know it. It wasn't always this way though. My husband and I were very selfish people in high school and college. We tended to our own way, he dated many women and I got pregnant at age sixteen, a boy who really didn't care for me. I forced my mother into signing for me to have an abortion. When my husband and I married I felt God would never allow me to have a child. I had taken a life already and why would He bless me with another. But He did because He is grace and love. Both which I needed desperately. I have given Him all my past failures and mistakes. I pour love into those two kids because of the vast amount my heavenly father poured into mine."
"You are amazing and I can tell God wants to restore you in all areas of your life. I will pray for you to have more and more of the nature of God so you can be everything He designed for You from the beginning in life. You are His precious daughter and He loves you."
She hugged me and we both wept while the children continued journaling, focused on their task.
As she joined them and sat huddled together arm in arm I bowed my head and prayed. God knew what was going on in my heart. He could read the huge unspoken burden. He was covering it with His pinions and asking me to rest there, beneath His wings. I could feel the loving Father very gently removing a huge splinter from my heart. A 'broken' place I never talk about and one I never thought would or could be healed. Very tenderly He was removing it and then did something very astounding. He took my chin, raise my face to His level and kissed me. I never have been kissed like this. It totally drained all misery from my heart. Then he took my hand, the one I write with, and rubbed his nail scared palm over mine. It was like heat entered my soul and I felt release. I didn't have words to describe my experience. I simply cried and let it all go, right there.
When I gathered my self and stood up to move on I looked for the young family but they were gone. I reached to get my backpack and noticed a piece of paper tucked under it. I unfolded it to see a picture of Jesus's hands. In the scars I saw my name. Wow!
I was thinking of my back and when it all went to wrong. I have had times where the pain is intense and then others when it is manageable. But all in all I have had constant pain for as long as I can remember. It could be I was born this way but many people say it has more to do with an incident in grade school when a teacher placed me rather firmly in my chair. My father even went to school to tell this particular teacher if I needed disciplining it would come from home, only. If you lived in my house you would beg for punishment from school. Both of my parents were harsh beyond reason when giving discipline. It is a miracle that I even survived my childhood from not only from a physical but more so an emotional standpoint.
So when we think about early life, once a child is born, we think about nurture. Every child needs it to survive. Beyond bottle/breast feeding there is nurture of the spirit. I'm talking about how a parent reaches into the heart of a child and instills love, peace, a well rounded sense of worth and well being. When all of those or most of them are absent where does the child get it, or do they? It could be they find it from other family members, child friends or friends parents, teachers, etc. In my case I got it from a few other family members. Without them I do not know what would have happened to me.
Sad as it is many children are faced with this and the rise in child suicide is directly related I am convinced. We can deal with bullies at school if we have a safe haven at home to fall back on. Bullies at school are nothing more than kids who have no one and feel a need to be "somebody." They may even be kids who are abused and have simply given up on ever being accepted by anyone.
Lord, I thank you for giving me some family and friends who spoke positive words and affirmation when I was young. I'm glad I didn't become a harsh kid who felt abandoned, turning my low self esteem into hurtful actions toward others. I am even more grateful you loved me and guided me to a place of grace where I surrendered my heart and life to you. Coming into fellowship with Jesus was a pivotal part of my life and am so glad to be Your daughter. Bless all the kids of the world and keep them safe and from the enemy. Place a hedge of protection around them and bring someone into their life who can guide them to the cross. Amen
I met a wonderful family today as I was making my way down the path. Mom was hiking along with her two kids. They were having a great time talking about school, the upcoming holiday season and who was more fit than the other. I stopped them and introduced myself. We had a chance to chat briefly while her children took out spiral notebooks from their backpacks. The kids huddled together and started writing and sketching what they could see from the path.
"We are on a day hike to the summit, where I have a great surprise for them." She was nervous but excited.
"Sounds fabulous. I hope your day is fun filled." I was happy for them.
"I brought them here to teach them how vast and wonderful our world is and how you can't always see the big picture from a low place. You have to climb high to see it all. I have recently lost my husband and their father. He was taken very suddenly in an accident. Our grief was huge at first and now is getting better. We focus on the joy we have in our life and how much pleasure he brought to us over the years. The children wanted to honor him by climbing, which he loved to do with us, and capturing our feelings this first time without him." She was getting teary as she glanced toward the kids busy in their journals.
"I think it is awesome you can do this with them. What a huge blessing." I was kinda at a loss for words. The family love was radiant and God was teaching me yet again about the power of who He is.
"We are blessed and know it. It wasn't always this way though. My husband and I were very selfish people in high school and college. We tended to our own way, he dated many women and I got pregnant at age sixteen, a boy who really didn't care for me. I forced my mother into signing for me to have an abortion. When my husband and I married I felt God would never allow me to have a child. I had taken a life already and why would He bless me with another. But He did because He is grace and love. Both which I needed desperately. I have given Him all my past failures and mistakes. I pour love into those two kids because of the vast amount my heavenly father poured into mine."
"You are amazing and I can tell God wants to restore you in all areas of your life. I will pray for you to have more and more of the nature of God so you can be everything He designed for You from the beginning in life. You are His precious daughter and He loves you."
She hugged me and we both wept while the children continued journaling, focused on their task.
As she joined them and sat huddled together arm in arm I bowed my head and prayed. God knew what was going on in my heart. He could read the huge unspoken burden. He was covering it with His pinions and asking me to rest there, beneath His wings. I could feel the loving Father very gently removing a huge splinter from my heart. A 'broken' place I never talk about and one I never thought would or could be healed. Very tenderly He was removing it and then did something very astounding. He took my chin, raise my face to His level and kissed me. I never have been kissed like this. It totally drained all misery from my heart. Then he took my hand, the one I write with, and rubbed his nail scared palm over mine. It was like heat entered my soul and I felt release. I didn't have words to describe my experience. I simply cried and let it all go, right there.
When I gathered my self and stood up to move on I looked for the young family but they were gone. I reached to get my backpack and noticed a piece of paper tucked under it. I unfolded it to see a picture of Jesus's hands. In the scars I saw my name. Wow!
Day 124 - Missed one
So sorry for missing a daily post for the first time. I was up early yesterday then drove to attend a meeting and then drove five hours to get home. I was spent, mentally and physically, after driving over seven hundred miles in two days. I attempted to watch some television but fell asleep.
Lord, I do want to thank you for giving me safe journeys to my destinations over the last two days. I drive knowing you are with me and keeping me safe. Amen
The journey down the mountain is going to go slowly. Unlike climbing which takes time to not get exhausted, the downhill side can have challenges for the physical body if taken too quickly. So I'll be resting often and enjoying the trip.
Lord, I do want to thank you for giving me safe journeys to my destinations over the last two days. I drive knowing you are with me and keeping me safe. Amen
The journey down the mountain is going to go slowly. Unlike climbing which takes time to not get exhausted, the downhill side can have challenges for the physical body if taken too quickly. So I'll be resting often and enjoying the trip.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Day 123 - Time to move on
I have had time to reflect on the Presidental election results and am now ready to speak my piece and then move on.
I am a conservative, Christian and voted for the Romney/Ryan ticket. I was not excited to make my selection this year due to not whole heartedly supporting either republican or democratic candidates. However I could not vote for a candidate who has done nothing to "change" our financial situation but has instead made the debt higher. I also hold Christian beliefs, on two key issues which oppose abortion and same sex marriages. I also value my Christian faith and am concerned about candidates which do not recognize Jesus Christ as the son of God, His diety, and ackowledge Him before men. Christ's death and resurrection is what assures believers of eternal life and we must accept the shed blood of Christ to be in relationship with the Godhead.
Having said all of this I am saddened more Americans do not hold to basic Biblical values. Our Founding Fathers worked tirelessly to give our nation a great foundation. Now our nation is very far from this foundation. We have drifted away from who we were designed to be and this is extremely sad. I have a G5 grandfather who fought in the Amerian Revolution to gaind freedom from Bristish rule. I wonder how other nations see us now. Have we altered our standing in the global community?
But my thoughts on how to react to having re-elected an administration so far from biblical values are to rely on God to ultimately rule. The universe is His and He is the final verdict on everything. The Bible tells us to pray for those in authority. We are to pray for our Kings, Queens, Presidents, all elected leaders, etc. It is not suggested it is required.
Lord, I want to submit to your headship in my life. I know you are not surprised at things occuring in this world. I lean on You for Your wisdom and guidance. I ask for wisdom for all our leaders. I also pray that the enemy and his tactics be thwarted. Do what only You can do and thank you for Your protection and provision. Amen
I stood at the top of this mountain and looked downt he path which descended in front of me. I'm ready to move on and watch for the next 'broken' blessing of healing God has in store for me. I started moving along the path, greatful for the down hill portion. I am eager for the days to come.
I am a conservative, Christian and voted for the Romney/Ryan ticket. I was not excited to make my selection this year due to not whole heartedly supporting either republican or democratic candidates. However I could not vote for a candidate who has done nothing to "change" our financial situation but has instead made the debt higher. I also hold Christian beliefs, on two key issues which oppose abortion and same sex marriages. I also value my Christian faith and am concerned about candidates which do not recognize Jesus Christ as the son of God, His diety, and ackowledge Him before men. Christ's death and resurrection is what assures believers of eternal life and we must accept the shed blood of Christ to be in relationship with the Godhead.
Having said all of this I am saddened more Americans do not hold to basic Biblical values. Our Founding Fathers worked tirelessly to give our nation a great foundation. Now our nation is very far from this foundation. We have drifted away from who we were designed to be and this is extremely sad. I have a G5 grandfather who fought in the Amerian Revolution to gaind freedom from Bristish rule. I wonder how other nations see us now. Have we altered our standing in the global community?
But my thoughts on how to react to having re-elected an administration so far from biblical values are to rely on God to ultimately rule. The universe is His and He is the final verdict on everything. The Bible tells us to pray for those in authority. We are to pray for our Kings, Queens, Presidents, all elected leaders, etc. It is not suggested it is required.
Lord, I want to submit to your headship in my life. I know you are not surprised at things occuring in this world. I lean on You for Your wisdom and guidance. I ask for wisdom for all our leaders. I also pray that the enemy and his tactics be thwarted. Do what only You can do and thank you for Your protection and provision. Amen
I stood at the top of this mountain and looked downt he path which descended in front of me. I'm ready to move on and watch for the next 'broken' blessing of healing God has in store for me. I started moving along the path, greatful for the down hill portion. I am eager for the days to come.
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Day 122 - Before I head on
Well today's blog will be breif.
I am still processing my response to the Presidentail election results from last night. I am trying to get the Lord's perspective and to also follow what the Bible is telling us as Christians. Above all else I know that my confidence is never in man, an person, it is only in God.
So I am taking more time to process before I head on.
More tomorrow evening.
I am still processing my response to the Presidentail election results from last night. I am trying to get the Lord's perspective and to also follow what the Bible is telling us as Christians. Above all else I know that my confidence is never in man, an person, it is only in God.
So I am taking more time to process before I head on.
More tomorrow evening.
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Day 121 - Normal, what's that
Today was busy, busy, busy! I have so much to do and so little hours to get it all done. Life is supposed to be getting back to normal, what ever that is. Last week the funeral was a deviation from our normal routine. Now though it is time to get back into the grind of work and all the home schedule offers.
It got me thinking about normal. Does anyone know what that means? Normal has definitions that vary from person to person. For me I wish it was mundane and quiet. In our life it is never that way. There are so many things which occur. I can plan a great day and it will explode once life happens.
Lord, I thank you for keeping us in your normal routine. For you have plans and they do not change. Life can happen all around us but from Heaven we are held in bliss. Your love is our steady reassurance. Amen
So while I am looking and feeling the coolness of this very tall peak I am comforted by the calm which is settling upon me. So far from the rush of activity in the normal world this mountain is a solace of peace. I've been experiencing healing along the way. It has been refreshing and so very liberating.
It got me thinking about normal. Does anyone know what that means? Normal has definitions that vary from person to person. For me I wish it was mundane and quiet. In our life it is never that way. There are so many things which occur. I can plan a great day and it will explode once life happens.
Lord, I thank you for keeping us in your normal routine. For you have plans and they do not change. Life can happen all around us but from Heaven we are held in bliss. Your love is our steady reassurance. Amen
So while I am looking and feeling the coolness of this very tall peak I am comforted by the calm which is settling upon me. So far from the rush of activity in the normal world this mountain is a solace of peace. I've been experiencing healing along the way. It has been refreshing and so very liberating.
Monday, November 5, 2012
Day 120 - On the road again
After having a few days off last week for my step-daughter's funeral it is Monday and back to work for me. Even better is driving 230 miles to my training site and then a pit stop driving home to see my grandson play his last 7th grade football game. The weather is great and the night will hopefully end in a victory.
In the course of my very busy day I have lots of time to pray and praise The Lord from my car. It is very refreshing and the solitude is enjoyable. The only hard part is being away from my family, namely my husband and daughter. I am a home body and being away from them is difficult for me.
Today I was training an office that is yet to open. The newness of this office reminds me of us when we experience new things for the first time. We may be anticipating all The Lord has for us, making room in our heart for upcoming blessings. It is called living in the hopes and dreams of the future. We are encouraged to look toward a future filed with hope and promise. It is what God has for us as His kids. We can't even dream as big as He can deliver. He wants to so we are enthralled by His vast love for us. He tells us in the book of Jeremiah that his plans for us are known by Him.
It is awesome when we know He is thinking about us, for our future. We are so caught up in the day to day how many of us really spend time thinking about our future and how bright and wonderful it will be? I am glad He is and has a plan in mind.
Lord, thank you for keeping my future in Your mind and promising me a hope for great things. I receive it and claim all You are getting ready to do for me. Amen
The steep climb is nearing an end. I can see the crest a bit further. The air is lighter and coolness drifts around me. The cool air gives way to mist as I step further. I reach the crest and notice that mist is gathering more and more around me. I suddenly notice I am in a low hanging cloud. I can feel the warmth of the sun even though it only peeks into my space as the clouds drift by. I find a tree close by and decide it is a good place to rest. I take a seat at the trunk base and lay back. What a great journey so far. Broken areas I thought would stay that way forever are being healed. I know and am confident Jesus is with me to heal what remains and is yet to be revealed
In the course of my very busy day I have lots of time to pray and praise The Lord from my car. It is very refreshing and the solitude is enjoyable. The only hard part is being away from my family, namely my husband and daughter. I am a home body and being away from them is difficult for me.
Today I was training an office that is yet to open. The newness of this office reminds me of us when we experience new things for the first time. We may be anticipating all The Lord has for us, making room in our heart for upcoming blessings. It is called living in the hopes and dreams of the future. We are encouraged to look toward a future filed with hope and promise. It is what God has for us as His kids. We can't even dream as big as He can deliver. He wants to so we are enthralled by His vast love for us. He tells us in the book of Jeremiah that his plans for us are known by Him.
It is awesome when we know He is thinking about us, for our future. We are so caught up in the day to day how many of us really spend time thinking about our future and how bright and wonderful it will be? I am glad He is and has a plan in mind.
Lord, thank you for keeping my future in Your mind and promising me a hope for great things. I receive it and claim all You are getting ready to do for me. Amen
The steep climb is nearing an end. I can see the crest a bit further. The air is lighter and coolness drifts around me. The cool air gives way to mist as I step further. I reach the crest and notice that mist is gathering more and more around me. I suddenly notice I am in a low hanging cloud. I can feel the warmth of the sun even though it only peeks into my space as the clouds drift by. I find a tree close by and decide it is a good place to rest. I take a seat at the trunk base and lay back. What a great journey so far. Broken areas I thought would stay that way forever are being healed. I know and am confident Jesus is with me to heal what remains and is yet to be revealed
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Day 119 - Fixed Point
Today I was visiting in Waco with my family before working in Austin tomorrow. I had the honor to attgend service with my daughter and her family. The service was very good. Since it is the Sunday before Election Day the Pastor wanted to remind everyone of our right, responsibility and priveledge to vote.
His main point was on fixing our focus, course of life, on Jesus and His kingdom, on God and His desire for mankind. His foundation verse 2 Chronicles 7:14, "If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray I will hear from heaven, forgive their sin and heal their land."
Our focus, our fixed point, those core issues for which there must be no debate because it is settled in our heart, keeps us on course and then all applications of life flow out from them. The main ones are:
1) God is good
2) Life is breathed from God
3) Marriage, between a man and a woman, is ordained by God
4) Created beings, male and female, were designed in God's image
Fixing our entire foundation on these four points give us a solid foundation to live a life in honor of the God who created also the entire universe. The same God who reigns in power in our lives.
Then being able to also watch the live broadcast at my home church in Southlake, TX I got to hear the continuation of Pastor Morris's message on the Lord's Prayer. Today being the section on "lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil..."
His key points were four also
1) God can't tempt us
2) God won't mislead us
3) God will deliver us
4) If we will pray
Our responsibility and direction is to PRAY. Every day, everyday...pray. We can't live without it.
Lord, I ask that we all beef up our prayer lives. It is our crucial link to all you have for us. Without it we can't stay connected to You. Amen
So as I journey up, going steeper and steeper, I need God for each step. I have my fixed point, I need the deliverer. I am trusting God and He is my protection, redeemer and healer.
His main point was on fixing our focus, course of life, on Jesus and His kingdom, on God and His desire for mankind. His foundation verse 2 Chronicles 7:14, "If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray I will hear from heaven, forgive their sin and heal their land."
Our focus, our fixed point, those core issues for which there must be no debate because it is settled in our heart, keeps us on course and then all applications of life flow out from them. The main ones are:
1) God is good
2) Life is breathed from God
3) Marriage, between a man and a woman, is ordained by God
4) Created beings, male and female, were designed in God's image
Fixing our entire foundation on these four points give us a solid foundation to live a life in honor of the God who created also the entire universe. The same God who reigns in power in our lives.
Then being able to also watch the live broadcast at my home church in Southlake, TX I got to hear the continuation of Pastor Morris's message on the Lord's Prayer. Today being the section on "lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil..."
His key points were four also
1) God can't tempt us
2) God won't mislead us
3) God will deliver us
4) If we will pray
Our responsibility and direction is to PRAY. Every day, everyday...pray. We can't live without it.
Lord, I ask that we all beef up our prayer lives. It is our crucial link to all you have for us. Without it we can't stay connected to You. Amen
So as I journey up, going steeper and steeper, I need God for each step. I have my fixed point, I need the deliverer. I am trusting God and He is my protection, redeemer and healer.
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Day 118 - Going On
"Yes, thou I walk through the valley of death, I will fear no evil..." from the 23rd Psalm this passage reminds us we will walk through valleys. We certainly don't choose them because, aside from their calm, serene and lushness, they hold hardship, struggle, pain. But for every mountain there is a valley and it takes two mountains to make a valley complete.
"In this life you will have trouble," God promised us, "but be of good cheer because I have overcome." We want to never forget he provides the way of escaping the trouble, overcoming. To overcome we must rise up to those things the enemy wants to beat us up with, tear us down, pin us to our soul's craving. But Jesus died and rose as a model for the believer. For every death there is a resurrection. Our mortal eyes don't see the resurrection because it happens in heaven where Christ is enthroned with His Father, where they wait for each of us to come, where we all will live one day in perfected love, peace, joy and most of all everlasting life.
Lord, I want to praise you for all the saints that have come from here to home, from this temporary earth to heaven, from mortality to immortality. I thank you for entrusting to us the precious lives we earthly birth, the ones who find their way into our families and the friends and associates who complete our circle of influence. May we be found faithful with their lives. When You, Almighty Father, request them home, we would be able to release them. For we know that You are our God and in You all decisions are perfect and for our ultimate good. Honor and praise to You our King. Amen
So as I turn and face the climb before me I am confident in the God of this universe. He is in control now and forever. I will fear not, for the power of the Godhead resides in me to will and do His good pleasure. With every step I take there is purpose. I am motivated to every process in this healing journey wiping all 'brokenness' from my human life. I shall take all the lessons learned and champion a God life, in others. I'm ready, going on.....
"In this life you will have trouble," God promised us, "but be of good cheer because I have overcome." We want to never forget he provides the way of escaping the trouble, overcoming. To overcome we must rise up to those things the enemy wants to beat us up with, tear us down, pin us to our soul's craving. But Jesus died and rose as a model for the believer. For every death there is a resurrection. Our mortal eyes don't see the resurrection because it happens in heaven where Christ is enthroned with His Father, where they wait for each of us to come, where we all will live one day in perfected love, peace, joy and most of all everlasting life.
Lord, I want to praise you for all the saints that have come from here to home, from this temporary earth to heaven, from mortality to immortality. I thank you for entrusting to us the precious lives we earthly birth, the ones who find their way into our families and the friends and associates who complete our circle of influence. May we be found faithful with their lives. When You, Almighty Father, request them home, we would be able to release them. For we know that You are our God and in You all decisions are perfect and for our ultimate good. Honor and praise to You our King. Amen
So as I turn and face the climb before me I am confident in the God of this universe. He is in control now and forever. I will fear not, for the power of the Godhead resides in me to will and do His good pleasure. With every step I take there is purpose. I am motivated to every process in this healing journey wiping all 'brokenness' from my human life. I shall take all the lessons learned and champion a God life, in others. I'm ready, going on.....
Friday, November 2, 2012
Day 117 - Processing
It was a difficult day today. Still processing all we experienced.
Lord, grant us serenity. Help us navigate these deep waters of grief and arrive safely on the shore where joy is restored. Amen
As I look at the panorama from this mountain side I am marveling at just how vast is the place we call home. Heaven is beyond comprehension and that's fine with me. My soul is content.
Lord, grant us serenity. Help us navigate these deep waters of grief and arrive safely on the shore where joy is restored. Amen
As I look at the panorama from this mountain side I am marveling at just how vast is the place we call home. Heaven is beyond comprehension and that's fine with me. My soul is content.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Day 116 - People will be people
Have you ever noticed that stressful times bring out the worst and sometimes the best in people. We should not be surprised when kids act like kids, but when adults act like kids it is a real eye opener.
I have been experiencing some really good and bad parts of behavior this week. It is hard to maneuver around the rawness of what people are feeling to get at the heart of the matter. I am keen enough to know many things said are coming from pain. Never the less words hurt and hurt deeper than a physical cutting.
Lord, please help us all to watch over the words we speak and the actions we take when done in haste, out of frustration or pain. Be a watchman at the threshold of our heart and bridle our tongues. Amen
So as I knelt on the mountain, the air very quiet, I ask God for His hand on my life. I ask that peace be present. I'm pleased He loves us enough to hear us in all phases of life. I am excited to have His joy which belongs to all of us.
I have been experiencing some really good and bad parts of behavior this week. It is hard to maneuver around the rawness of what people are feeling to get at the heart of the matter. I am keen enough to know many things said are coming from pain. Never the less words hurt and hurt deeper than a physical cutting.
Lord, please help us all to watch over the words we speak and the actions we take when done in haste, out of frustration or pain. Be a watchman at the threshold of our heart and bridle our tongues. Amen
So as I knelt on the mountain, the air very quiet, I ask God for His hand on my life. I ask that peace be present. I'm pleased He loves us enough to hear us in all phases of life. I am excited to have His joy which belongs to all of us.
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