Today was exciting. I was able to share with some friends about myself, passion and product. I attend a networking group and the ladies are very kind and sweet. Many are there to meet with each other and develop friendships as well as grow their businesses. I have only been able to attend sporatically because of my day job. With my employment changing in two days I will have time to be more involved and develop some cool friends.
Since I don't have a 'product' in the traditional sense I prayed and asked God what I could share that would be helpful to the women there. I decided to encourage and inspire with thought provoking questions and helpful ideas for living a great life.
Today God also showed me a 'broken' portion it was time to heal. Maybe you know it? Impatience. I am still a person who can get irritated and impatient rather quickly. I don't like it and if you are one like me you probably don't like it either. I pray and ask God for help, so many times. I should know better. The only way to heal this is though circumstances and situations which evoke a response.
Of course this morning while getting my presentation ready for my luncheon at Orchid I barked at my husband. I was short and, I'll say it, rude. I immediately felt bad and the cycle of: irritation, bad response, guilt, played out AGAIN. Ouch it hurts to admit it but I am sure I am not alone. So what to do? Ask forgiveness and then submit the issue to God, AGAIN. Through Him is the only way to heal 'broken' behavior. Ignoring it does nothing to foster wholeness. Out in the open, confessing, God is able to work.
Lord, I am sorry and ask You to heal the root of what causes me to snap and respond unkind toward those I love. Help me to be more like Christ. You can see my heart. I have compassion and love the people in my life. I never want to hurt or disappoint them. I want to be the best me. Amen
So when I was about to the summit, ready to take in the beauty and majesty of God's handiwork, I tripped. I feel hard on the path and just knew something was bleeding for sure. On closer evaluation I was fine but realized slowing down my pace was wise.
While I was gathering my body into an upright position I heard The Lord speak to me. He said, "When you are impatient, it is because you are hurrying and not paying attention to the things along the way I want you to see. You fall and it hurts." Wow, an answer to the root of my issue. It is because I am in a hurry, not being observant of the things on my journey.
It is true. My eyes were on the summit and for the last portion of the path I couldn't tell you what was there. What had I missed? In my haste to "get this portion of the climb over with" I took a tumble.
While I dusted off the dirt from my pants I thanked God for revelation. My job now is application of the truth. Slow and steady was the cry of the turtle and he taught the hare a lesson. The race is not only about the fastest but rather the journey itself. So onward I go having embraced another 'broken' area which I yeilded to the God for His healing power. I know the view ahead of me can't measure up to my face in the dirt on this path. Having been brought low, God spoke. It just doesn't get any better.
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