Day 179 & 180 - Double Days

It was a total mind mistake to miss writing yesterday but so much is going on truth is, I forgot.  Seems hard to believe after 178 days I could forget my blog but I'm human and it happened.  But never-the-less I am here now.

The New Year is always full of well intentioned resolutions.  We are going to change this, restart that, move here, act now, finally accomplish whatever.  Then reality hits when we don't hit the mark, we stumble, we get tripped up, even think we fail.  It is a terrible roller coaster and I don't know why people do it to themselves.  The constant up and down and up and down can make you more than queasy or light headed.  Like your blood sugar these ebbs and flows, highs and lows can be very dangerous.

With resolution bubbles bursting as fast as New Year's Eve champagne the average person is left in a slump, near depressed and feeling pretty crappy about themselves over something they brought on. Kinda like waking up hung over from too much bubbly.  No sippy, no sicky.

My answer is simple:     Never make a resolution list and never drink alcohol.

You never feel bad about breaking a promise to yourself and you are money ahead for having not bought the alcohol or missed work due to "the flu."

Of course you say....NEVER, that seems a bit harsh, don't ya think?  Well depends on you.  Absentince for some is always better than moderation.  The former assures a guaranteed result and the later is permission to modify if you "feel" like it.  Funny thing is I never, well almost never, see anyone modify moderation to less it usually becomes more.

Lord, thank you for allowing us in our humanness to have Your forgiveness, joy and grace that are new every morning and also throughout the day, and peace.  For me I choose to live each day to the best I can and let the rest take care of itself.  Amen

So walking further up the path I have been thrilled at all the beauty and even some ugly places.  I have been concentrating more on the ugly patches for not only how they look now but trying to imagine what they were and then of course picturing what they will become.  All the devestating places are change, a transformation from something to something else.  Kinda like going from bangs to no bangs, the growing out, transformation phase is pretty ugly.  But it is a phase which must be accomplished for an end result you want. 

So my own transformation is taking shape professionally, physically and emotionally.  I don't have a list to stick to and check off.  I don't have a time frame or deadlines.  I almost don't even have a game plan.  It is all fluid and totally in God's hands.  Lord I await Your next instruction because it's kinda ugly around here right now.