So talkng trust yesterday and then today in prayer time I am uneasy. Ever had one of those days? Feeling uneasy and really can't focus on why? Well that's great to know I am not alone. I hunkered in for focus in my prayers and admitted to God, I want to change something.
One of the things my husband and I differ on is that he is steady as a rock and change to him is not a comfortable situtaion. I on the other hand am constantly looking to change something. At first I thought it was a trust issue and every time I felt a squeeze to model a behavior or be molded I would wanna change something. Then I realized it had little to do with trust and more to do with satisfaction. I am the first to be appreciative for everything I have because it has taken my entire life to work out some rough spots. But, for example, it seems that the longer I live in my house the more I want to move, I love my job but I'm always reaching for more or upward mobility. I used to just move furntiure around and that was a fix in my home. One career field for over thirty years sounds stable but within that amount of time I lost count of all the differet facets of work I have done.
Today is one of those days. I am fidgety and frustrated. So I offer to the Lord my gypsy heart and ask, "What am I supposed to hear and how am I to get over this?" I am still waiting on an answer. The heavens are quiet. So I pray some more.
If you find yourself doing this, running on a hamster wheel but not getting anywhere, feeling like you wanna do something but can't identify what that would be, hang in there. I am determined to get an answer. I am gonna share it when I hear. But for now, hold on where you are.
Lord, please help my readers and myself with the answer to our delimea. Being unsettled in our spirit is uncomfortable. Please Holy Spirit shine the light on what we need and how to appropriate the solution. Amen
Trekking along its time for a siesta while I wait to hear. The higher I go the better I see. Hopefully my hearing will become heightened as well.
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