Day 52 - More tilling of the Heart

So yesterday we started a bonfire.  We looked into our hearts in a desire to till out the bad and make the soil ready to be planted again.  This time our new crop will flourish with the growth the Lord intends to make us ready to testify of His goodness and reach people who are without hope, have no joy, lack peace.

So watching my "critical" habits burn I sought the Lord for what else there might be that needs purified.    Yep, more and the next was a huge one.  Anxiousness.

Okay, please tell me someone in my reading audience has been anxious, is anxious or will be anxious soon?   Let me know I am not the only one who worships God and sings praises but yet struggles with this?

I will admit for all the joy I have and the trust in the Lord I profess and the constant hope I lean on daily I still get anxious.  Why?!?  There are ample Bible passages that address "being anxious for nothing" yet it plaques me.  Even as I write this I am anxious for a business trip I am taking tomorrow.  I love to fly, have secretly desired to be a flight attendant as my dream job, but the thought of leaving home and being away sends mild panic and anxious feelings into my body.

I was reading today in 1 Peter 3:4 today and it spoke to me. I'll quote it from the amplified Bible, "But let it be the inward adorning and beauty of the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible and unfading charm of a gentle and peaceful spirit, which is not anxious or wrought up, but is very precious in the sight of God."  Wow!

Lord I submit to you that my anxious nature is crippling my walk.  I ask for the Holy Spirit to wash over and remove the root of this problem.  Help my readers who struggle in this area to be renewed so that the vacant place where anxiousness used to reside can be more good ground for the seeds of the Fruit of the Spirit.  Amen

So I guess I'm going to sit a spell here at the fires edge and make my offerings into the inferno.  I am determined to walk away from this place, give it a name for where I left my hearts issues born from error, as a new person with a heart postured for service to the King who resides there.  Then the healing portion of the 'broken' journey can really begin from a basis of health.